sorry i haven't gotten things done
i'm currently in some sort of hellhole mentally and i don't feel good at all and drawing doesn't work
just so much stress, pressure, bad thoughts, not being able to sleep and getting bad grades while studying hard
it's probably a problem with my intelligence, since i have quite the high IQ (why do they even call it being gifted like it's no fucking fun at all, the pressure because "it should be easy for you because you are smart" is so so bad)
that way normal student things won't work for me because i never learnt how to study the right way (because all this time i was smart enough to manage, and now i can't do shit)
and it might also be some sort of ADD, but i have to get that tested at first (ADD means that you get too much info in your brain and it has a hard time sorting the right things out, so you get easily distracted and can't focus well, which isn't noticable sometimes. that way it feels like you study hard but you're not doing a great job because of ADD)
so i'm going to search for a psychologist soon and try to stay positive
sorry for being away for such long periods or that i don't respond, i do read everything though
i hope i can manage to get my life on track again, but ya'll will hear from me when i will get active again
i'm sorry fo the inconvienience and for the wait on art but i cant manage everything at once
-scotch
the worst of this all is that when people ask you how you are, you have to answer with "not good at all", it makes me sick that people worry about me because i'm down all the time... i don't want to ruin their happy feelings